As If

I do wonder
how it was for you
for me it was
* * * * * * * like this
for a moment, months maybe
me in a coloured cloud glib as a giggle
girl glad to be go go go oh I was envied
for you you god's head God even

Christ! it was

a trip and a half on half a trip and no kidding
I was it was both of us I thought I realize no
I know us in a high hysteric kidding ourselves

I was the kid not you not then not
by a long chalk but both of us
glib as idiots it seemed
it seems
for a moment
we weren't screwed
as if

Christ hadn't crashed
on a wine spewed
morning
as if

I couldn't wonder
after that




(not new, I'm spring cleaning my poetry cupboard :)